Apa punya malang daa...

Hari kedua aku bawak kete Dick, dah rasa ok sikit cuma aku rasa tersiksa kalu nak turn sebab stering dia berat giler kalu kete slow. Aku nak bawak laju pun tak berani takut takleh control, lagi pun takde power stering.

Pukul 3 aku dah keluar opis, janji gan kak na mintak tolong dia hantar aku kat Hospital. Aku ingat nak melawat abg Rahim dulu sebelum amik kete sampai sana baru pukul 3.45 waktu melawat pukul 4.30 so aku menapak le ke pecan kajang amik teksi pegi Kajang Utama. David takleh amik aku sebab takde org kat workshop. Dari Pekan kajang ke Kajang Utama kena RM8 je, not bad. Sampai sana kete baru kuar dari tempat cat, kena pegi isi gas, pasang plat baru gan nak pasal bal lampu. Dah siap aku blah, singgah hospital dulu.

Ish, ngeri aku tengok kaki masuk besi kat buku lali. Abg Rahim accident petang semalam, malam tadi baru aku tau. Dia kena kat depan PBB Balakong, dia kata dia naik motor jalan terus lepas tu kete keluar dari simpang terus langgar dia, dia pun tak bawak laju dlm 40km/j je. Kete tu terus keluar je dari simpang. Dia kata lepas kena tu dia nak bangun tapi kaki dia sebelah dah terkulai, derang pun tak berani nak hantar dia gi hospital, tunggu ambulance datang, terus bawak pegi kajang. Malam tadi dia operation dari pukul 10 mlm sampai 5 pagi masuk besi. Aku bab tengok org patah camnie rasa tak sanggup nak tengok.

5.45 kuar dari sepital sebab nak amik Athirah kat. Untung lak rasanya, kete aku nampak cantik le plak. Aritu kat bonet depan ada kesan kemik sekarang dah ok.. bahagian depan tu dah ditukar ke chrome nampak berkilat.

Singgah kat Satinni amik barang org order, poket kering dah nie tapi apa bleh buat.. gaji tatau ler bila. Amoi tu cakap mungkin lewat kot sebab takde collection masuk lagi buat masa nie.

Alhamdullillah

Nasib baik naik kete pagi nie, lepas je Dick gan Athirah keluar hujan turun. Hujan pagi nie, hujan rahmat. Kekok habis aku, nasib le opis dekat, tu pun aku rasa jauh sangat bawak kete dia. Biasanya hari Isnin kete tak banyak sangat. Alhamdullilah takde apa2. Selamat aku sampai ke opis. Hahaha bodohnya aku. Bukannya belagak tapi aku memang rasa lain kalu aku bawak kete orang. Bukan kata kete orang kalu keta aku sendiri pun kalu orang lain bawak aku pun rasa semacam, apa ke bangangnya aku nih..!!! hehehe

Malam tadi pukul 12 mlm Fizah sms bagitau dia dah bayar duit kat David. Lega rasa hati aku

Apa2 Aje

Malam tadi aku takleh nak tido, susah hati pasal kete. Buatnya Fizah tak bayar mampus aku, mana nak cekau seribu lebih nak bayar kete. Tawakal jelah. Dok fakir gak macam mana aku nak pegi keja esok. Kete Dick aku memang tak pernah bawak sebelum nie. Dah biasa bawak auto kekok pulak rasanya bawak manual.

Tengahari Cik Ma call suruh dating makan tengahari rumah dia sebab Pak Ngah dating bawah buah rambutan gan durian dari kampong. Pukul 12 pegi Shah Alam lepak sana kejap sampai pukul 3.30, pastu singgah kat Stadium Shah Alam ada Karnival apa tah. Bawak Athirah bukan boleh lelama, bila dia dah letih mula ler dia nak balik, benggang je aku, belum habis ronda2 dah nak balik. Apa lagi balik jelah.

Pukul 5 sampai rumah, kak na call ajak lepak kat rumah dia. Memang dah jadi routine tiap2 minggu lepak kat pondok rumah dia tu. Aku cuba bawak kete Dick, kekok habis, hahaha athirah gelak je kata aku tak reti bawak kete abah dia. Tapi insya-allah ler takde apa2 kot memula je sebab tak biasa. Honda V-Tec kete orang muda, dah ler rendah aku rasa dok dalam tu cam nak baring je. Kete waja aku seat dia tinggi sikit. Dah ler aku nie rendah terpaksa tarik kerusi ke depan sekali, tu pun aku rasa cam tak sampai lagi.

Malam Dick tanya esok aku camner nak gi keje, aku cakap aku lebih rela bawak motor lagi dari bawak kete Honda dia. Dia kata dia takmau bawak kete gi keje lagi pun susah aku nak angkut barang sekolah Athirah nak hantar rumah Kak Na.

Apa daaaaaaaaaa....

Subuh2 lagi Ma dah call bagitau mak dah sampai kat Melaka, kaco je orang nak tido. Mula aku ingatkan Athirah set alarm sebab dia nak sekolah, dia yang tengok. Pastu dia ckp makcik tepon so aku call ler balik, mana la tau kot2 ada emergency ke. Dia bagitau bas rombongan mak naik tu tak lalu Jalan Duta derang ikut jalan Damansara lalu kot Shah Alam katanya..

Athirah tak pegi sekolah agama sakit perut katanya. Entah kenapa tatau le dari malam tadi dia mengadu sakit perut cirit birit tapi takde le teruk sangat. Dia tu biasa ler kalu sakit sikit mengalahkan bertahun sakitnya kejap je nampak pucat lesi. Sekolah rendah pun dia tak pegi. Abah dia balik bawak dia pegi klinik dapat mc ler.

Aku ajak Dick pegi amik mak kat Nilai dia malas, so aku ajak Kak Na temankan sesambil cuci mata. Nak shopping pun bukan ada duit ujung bulan nie, jejalan jelah.

Masa baru keluar dari flat rumah Kak Na, aku berenti disimpang tiba2 sebuah kete wira aeroback laju je menuju arah aku, sempat gak aku sebut “mak aih lajunya” apa lagi terus berdentum kete aku, tergamam aku sekejap. Apa nak kata lagi dah nak jadi. Kak Na bising gak “apa la tak nampak ker” kata dia. Dia terus keluar aku sempat reverse sikit kete. Tak sanggup rasanya nak tengok kete aku masa tu. Fizah (nama budak tu) pun cam panik semacam je. Aku keluar dari kete aku tengok dah rebeh bumper depan denga bonet dah kemik sikit, kena betul2 kat plat kete apa lagi kiri kanan mesti terjatuh punya sebab dia terhentak klip mesti terkeluar. Lampu sebelah kanan pecah pastu besi body belah dalam bengkok kena kat condenser air-cond, bocor ler apa lagi, masa aku cuba on air-cond ada bunyi cam kipas bergesel tapi sebenarnya gas air-cond dah keluar. Kita orang pegi Balai Polis Serdang tapi takleh wat report sebab luar kawasan terus pegi ke Kajang. Aku call abang Rahim, kebetulan dia baru je balik rumah so dia dating jumpa aku depan balai. Dia cakap kalu takde teruk lebih baik jangan report. Fizah dgn tuning dia + adik tunang dia kot. Abg Rahim ckp kerosakkan tak banyak kalu claim insuran atau report rugi. Saman dah tentu kena lepas tu nak claim amik masa lama nak tunggu adjuster baru bleh repair keta. Lepas tu bapak Fizah cakap dia sanggup bayar cash. Lega sikit aku, 2-3 hari dah bleh siap kete. Cost 2 buah kete dlm RM1600, David (pomen) tu cakap. So fizah setuju bayar cash. Fizah kata kete tu atas nama mak dia, kalu nak claim insurance leceh sebab nak kena mak dia sign, lagi pun dia kena bayar dekat insurance co. RM300 sebab kete bukan atas nama dia. Apa pun aku tak kisah janji dia tau dia yang bersalah dan dia nak tanggung semua kos repair.

Dah lepas settle discuss pasal repair kete terus hantar kete kat workshop David kat Kajang Utama. Abang Rahim bawa sebab aku tak berapa tau tempat tu. Balik naik dengan Fizah, sebab dia takmau hantar kete dulu, ada hal nak guna kete. Tapi katanya mungkin dia nak cari workshop lain yg dekat sikit. Dia kata workshop kat Balakong cas baru RM300 je untuk kete dia. Yelah bukan teruk sangat kete dia. Lampu je pecah sebelah, hat lain tu ketuk je kot. Bumper dia ok cuma calar sikit je. Kesian gak aku tengok dia, panik habis. Mau sakit2 satu badan tu. Aku dah merasa sebelum nie.

Oh ya, lepas kena tu aku terus call syam suruh dia amik mak kat nilai. Masa dia dlm perjalanan tu kete dia pun kena sondol dari belakang. Tapi takde apa sangat suma bumper belakan tu pecah sikit je. Dia gi balai polis Serdang gak nak wat report tapi org hat langgar tu tak report lagi so dia terus pegi amik mak dulu. Derang call nak makan, dah kebulur katanya. Apa lagi kelam kabut ler aku masak plak lepas balik dari Kajang tu. Nasib le sebelum keluar tadi aku dah keluarkan ayam dengan sotong dari freezer. Nasi aku dah masa sikit untuk kita 3 beranak je, balik tu terpaksa masak lagi sikit. Pastu Dick belanja satay., dia beli bawak balik je. Malam mak tido rumah syam, apa bleh buat kalu dia tido rumah aku camner nak hantar dia kerumah syam esok. Plan memula tu nak di makan tengahari kat rumah syam ler sebab dia kan baru dapat gaji baru. Takde rezeki ler.

HADIRNYA CINTA

Tika kaki melangkah jauh meninggalkan segala-gala yang disayangi itu di sini, tiada siapa yang tahu, perjalanan itu turut membawa hatinya yang hancur berderai. Di kejauhan, dia cuba mencari kedamaian, ketenangan dan kebahagiaan. Dalam meniti bilahan hari, tanpa dia sendiri menduga, kepingan hatinya yang hancur dikutip dan dirawat dengan kasih sayang yang mengasyikkan. Dia mula dibelai perasaan suci itu sekali lagi. Dia melihat dirinya kembali direnda kebahagiaan dan keindahan. Dia melihat hari depan ditandai tinta emas.

Namun kedukaan tak pernah jemu mendekatinya. Dia dibenci dan dianiaya hanya kerana dia disayangi dan dicintai.Apakah dia tidak berhak bahagia seperti insan lain? Apakah resminya begitu, bahagia hanya mengejar mereka yang melorek dunia dengan harta?


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Aku baru saja selesai tamat baca novel nie.. jalan ceritanya agak menarik. Tak kala kita mula membaca ia akan membuatkan kita rasa rugi untuk tidak meneruskan pembacaan kita sehingga tamat. Jalan cerita yang teratur membuatkan kita ingin terus membaca hingga ke akhir. Titipan kisah hidup gadis bernama Aliya yang keciwa dalam cinta pertama hingga membawanya ke luar negara mengharungi kehidupan dirantauan. Dia menyintai Zaidi dalam diam. Zaidi jirannya sejak kecil merupakan taman rapat dan juga sahabat diwaktu dibangku sekolah hingga membenihkan bibit-bibit cinta dihati Aliya terhadap Adi namun cinta Aliya tidak kesampaian kerana pada Zaidi dia hanya mengganggap Aliya seperti adiknya sendiri. Dalam kekeciwaan hati Aliya dia terpaksa merestui hubungan Zaidi dan Kamilia rakan sekolahnya. Aliya menerima tawaran belajar ke luar negara dan ingin membawa bersama kenangan bersama Zaidi. Biarpun harapannya hancur untuk memilikki cinta Zaidi namun cintanya terhadap Zaidi tidak pernah pudar.
Diperantau hati Aliya benar-benar tersentuh bila menerima setiap email dari Zaidi yang mengutuskan gambar-gambar saat bahagianya dengan Kamilia. Aliya memendam api cemburu hanya pada Haikal tempatnya mengadu. Haikal jejaka yang menaruh hati padanya tanpa disedarinya. Setelah menamatkan pengajian selama 4 tahun Aliya pulang ke tanah air dan membawa bersama cinta Haikal.
Novel nie agak dramatis jugak, kalau kita benar-benar menghayatinya ia mampu menitiskan airmata.

TITIPKAN AKU BAHAGIA - SITI ROZILAH

Hidup Syakila pernah ditabiri warna kusam.Amat kontras warna-warna kehidupan yang pernah dan akan diloreknya.Namun bayangan silam kerap mengitari dan memerangkap.Nama lelaki telah dipadamkan dari mata hatinya,namun mengapa lelaki juga yang kerap mengejarnya? Dia telah berlari menjauhi lelaki.Dia ingin mencipta bahagia sendiri bersama teman-teman,namun mengapa sering kali gagal? Kerana lelaki,dia dibenci dan didendami oleh sahabatnya sendiri...

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Keseluruhan jalan cerita agak menarik jugak. Tapi tatau mengapa aku mengambil masa yang lama untuk tamatkan novel nie. Rasanya bukan salah jalan cerita novel nie tapi mungkin mood aku takde. Bila aku cuba kembali menghayati cerita ni hingga akhir ia boleh aku anggap menarik. Novel nie memaparkan kehidupan seorang model bernama Syakila. Kisah hidupnya yang penuh dengan sejarah hitam. Anak yang terpaksa berpisah dengan ayahnya sejak dilahirkan setelah kematian ibunya.

Perjalanan hidupnya penuh dengan ranjau berduri tika dia dijadikan wanita simpanan oleh seorang lelaki yang amat dicintainya. Kerana sejarah hitam itu juga dia menjadi seorang gadis yang mempunyai prinsip hidup yang kuat. Pada awalnya penulis tidak menceritakan sejarah hitam yang dialami Syakila, ini membuatkan pembaca ingin terus membaca untuk mencari kisah sebaliknya. Satu demi satu kisah diceritakan membuatkan jalan cerita lebih menarik.

MC aka Ponteng

entah kenapa bangun subuh tadi Athirah demam.. malam tadi lagi dia mengadu tak sihat. Pagi aku bawak dia ke klinik dah terlanjur tu aku amik mc aku sekali...

Apa nak jadi tah...

2/6/2007 aku balik kg lagi.. emergency je.. sebelum tu ada la suami aku cakap dia nak balik kg ada hal katanya, takde lak dia pelawa aku. Aku pun buat tak kisah jelah sebab dia kata nak tumpang Along balik.

Malam tadi aku ingat suami aku balik dah.. malas aku nak tanya tapi pukul 11.30 dia balik merungut2 katanya kereta dia kena towing rosak masa nk ke rumah Along.. entah apa dia bebel tatau la.. esoknya aku ingat dia nak balik sorang naik bas sebab Along ada call tanya dia dah balik ke belum.. Ish pelik gak aku apa hal lak semua adik beradik dia balik.. kata Along nak buat doa selamat.. tapi aku tau sebenarnya derang nak buat baca Yassin sebab hp adik dia yg kawin tu hilang masa kenduri tu.. derang bengang sebab dah byk kali rumah tu hilang barang.. sebelum nie barang kemas mak mertua aku kena kebas.. sebelum tu pulak barang kemas adik ipar aku masa kawin dia... tapi masa tu tak perasan sgt.. tapi kali nie derang sekeluarga tak tahan coz ada pencuri dalam keluarga.. Memang derang dapat agak siapa punya angkara sebab masa petang barang tu hilang takde org luar semua ahli keluarga je. Malas la aku nak cerita tapi aku memang pening kepala dgn keluarga mertua aku nie macam2 kerenah ada.. tak pernah aman nasib baik la aku jauh kalu tak sure bercakar jugak.. buat masa nie aku gan keluarga dia ok lagi la tatau la esok lusa camner.. Harap2 takde masalah la..

Selamat Pengantin Baru

Assalamualaikum..

Dah lama aku tak updated blog nie.. takde masa. So hari nie aku cuba updated semula apa yg terjadi beberapa minggu lepas..

25/5/07 aku nak ucapkan selamat pengantin baru buat adik ipar aku dan pasangannya Edy.. Nie perkahwinan terakhir dalam keluarga belah suami aku sebab nie adik ipar aku yang bongsu sekali.. Huh!! nasib le yang last kalu ada lagi aku awal2 lagi angkat tangan.. letih giler.. orang seronok aku rasa cam nak pengsan je..

Aku cuti 4 hari.. malam jumaat aku balik sampai kg pukul 2 pagi.. nie mmg jadual biasa untuk kita org travel balik kg.. Subuh hari jumaat pepagi lagi mak aku dah kejut aku bangun gi rumah mak mertua aku.. emm kebetulan mak aku jadi tukang masak untuk kenduri nie so secara tak langsung aku kenalah jadi assistance dia.. Dari awal lagi kak ipar sulung aku dah pesan mintak aku masak lauk pengantin ish..ish.. bab nie aku memang slender punya.. kalu setakat tolong tu ok lagi kot..

Aku dah faham sangat kerenah ipar2 aku semua tu.. semua takleh nak harap sangat.. adatlah menantu2 le yang teruk.. hari tu dari pukul 7 pagi aku ke rumah mertua sampai 1 pagi baru aku balik tido.. nasib la rumah dekat.

Emm hari nie jugak derang nikah.. pelik gak aku kenapa tak buat je esok masa kenduri takde la susah.. oo patut la tok kadi tu dah kumpulkan 3 pasangan lain utk dinikahkan serentak pada hari tu.. majlis tu kat masjid pasir putih ipoh.. kat mana aku pun tatau ler... sebab aku tak amik port sangat bab tu..














Majlis Akad nikah - Masjid Pasir Puteh Ipoh














Posing sebelum akad nikah.














Alamak aku baru perasan mamat pengapit tu bekas pekerja kat tempat aku nie.. ceh memang aku tak perasan langsung ari tu...














gambar kenangan anak menantu perempuan masa di rumah pengantin lelaki di Kg Expo Kemunting Taiping..

Ronda-ronda lepas boring

Semalam aku bawak atirah gi opis sebab aku plan pas keje nak bawah dia gi JJ.. kat opis takde mende nak buat pun, lagipun dah 3 hari bos outstation ke penang sebab deliver equipment ke Penang Swimming Club 2 hari lepas.. kelam kabut sikit sebab project tu nak siap cepat.. buat masa nie cuma imported equipment je yang dihantar dulu yang lain masih dalam fabrication lagi.. Aku boring la bila kerja banyak tangan nie... dulu aku sorang je yang handle takde pun masalah.. bukan aku tak pernah buat delivery, sebelum nie pun berkontena aku hantar ke Kota Kinabalu tapi takde masalah langsung bila orang lain campur tangan jadi kelam kabut dibuatnya.. Ada amoi baru tu memang tatau keja langsung.. dan sorang lagi tu akaun baru suka menyibuk cam dia bagus... semua dia nak tau padahal bila suruh handle tatau... bukan setakat tu aku tanya dia tau wat clearance shipment dia cakap tatau.. pastu kecoh nak suruh aku pas keja clearance tu kat amoi baru tu... takpe nie ada shipment kat port nak wat clearance, aku rasa nie tugas aku terakhir untuk wat clearance cargo, next shipment aku takmau amik tahu lagi.. derang nak buat sangat biarkan lagi aku suka.. Aku cakap amoi akaun kalu u nak amoi tu buat aku tak kisah tapi jangan ada mistake sudah nanti dan aku takmau amik tahu lepas nie.. dah bertahun aku yang handle semua nie.. bos pun tak arahkan aku serah tugas tu pada amoi baru ada org lain lak yg memandai nak mengarah.. takpe aku nak tengok je..

Apa aku melalut nie.. eemm lepas abis keje aku gi jejalan kat JJ gan athirah.. nak balik rumah boring lak rasanya takde sesapa.. kalu kat rumah sure wat taik mate je rasanya... Anak dara aku nak beli crown aku tak kasi.. ari tu dia nak crown mainan masa kat hot market tu pun aku tak kasi sebab aku tau sangat la anak aku tu.. bila dah dapat sampai kat rumah campak merata rata.. Aku masuk kedai accessories wanita ada jual crown.. dia nak.. ish tu untuk org kawin punya le... pastu aku berkenan satu hairband tu.. cute gak ada double love gan berlian camtu.. terpikir 2 kali aku nak beli harga dia 16.90 ish.. cekak pin gitu mahal ek.. mungkin sebab ada berlian kilat2 tu kot.. aku tak mau beli dah athirah tarik mula masam... pastu aku jejalan lagi.. masuk Popular, survey novel baru.. tapi aku tak beli pun, hujung bulan nie tengah kering.. lari budget weh.. Nasib baik ler sebelum abah dia balik malam tadi dia tinggalkan duit belanja kat athirah 50 hinggit..

Emm TGV kat JJ baru nak bukak 1 mei nie.. makin ramai le orang melepak sana.. athirah ajak aku tengok wayang.. ish budak nie macam2 ler.. insya-allah nanti aku bawak ler.. cuti hari pekerja ke.. Masa jalan tu jumpa gerai ada jual accessori wanita terjumpa hairband yg sama cam aku tengok kat kedai sebelum nie rega dia baru seploh hinggit, apa lagi aku terus beli ler.. happy la minah tu..

Dah dapat apa yang dia nak cam biasa la mesti dia kata lapar... gi makan kat food court, dia melantak sizzling aku makan laksa.. terkejuz aku dia bleh habis semua.. sah lapar sangat tu.. Pas makan dia ckp nak balik.. dah tak larat jalan kenyang sangat.. pukul 4 balik rumah.. pastu aku Zzzzzzzzzzz

Bohsannyerrr...

Tadi laki aku dah bertolak balik Ipoh, tinggal aku gan Athirah je.. aku suruh athirah ikut tapi dia takmau.. bagus gak kalu dia tak balik ada gak aku teman.. Aku ingat kalu dia balik kg aku nak gi lepak kat rumah abg aku je tapi derang pun balik kg gak malam nie.. adehh lagi le bohsan..

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU (Stevie B)

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU (Stevie B)

I got your letter
From the postman
Just the other day
So I decided
To write you this song
Just to let you know
Exactly the way I feel
To let you know
My love's for real
Because I love you
And I'll do anything
I'll give you my heart
My everything
Because I love you
I'll be right by your side
To be alive
To be your guy

If you should feel
That I don't really care
And that you're starting to lose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that I will always be around

Because I love you
My heart's an open door
Girl, won't you please come on in
Because I love you
I'll be right by your side
To be alive
To be your guy

If you should feel
That I don't really care
And that you're starting to lose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that I will always be around

Because I love you
My heart's an open door
Girl, won't you please come on in
Because I love you
I'll be right by your side
To be alive
To be your guy

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Lagu nie bila aku dengar memang tangkap lentok je...

MY ALL (Mariah Carey)

MY ALL (Mariah Carey)

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it’s wrong to love you
Then my heart just won’t let me right
Cause I’ve drowned in you
And I won’t pull through
Without you by my side

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your Body feel next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight

I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight

Athirah demam lak...

Dah 2 3 hari laki aku tak sihat.. asik selsema tak habi2 lagi dari ari tu... sekarang nie athirah lak demam.. malam tadi badan dia panas giler... risau aku dibuatnya. Aku nie bila dia sakit mula la aku pikir bukan2.. maklum ler tu jelah satu2nya anak aku..

Sekarang nie cuaca tak menentu.. kekadang pagi petang hujan.. kadang tu lak panas terik.. time2 camnie klinik2 la untuk, musim orang sakit..

Ponteng keje..

Hari nie suami aku demam.. petang semalam pukul 6.30 dia dah muncul kat rumah, selalu tu selagi tak malam tak penah nampak muka dia kat rumah.. biasanya kul 8 baru balik.. dia merungut tak sihat.. aku wat bodoh je.. dia tu kalu dia tak sihat bukan bleh layan kang silap ari bulan kite lak yg kena mengalahkan budak kecik... aku pun ponteng ler apa lagi.. dia pepag bising suruh aku gi keje.. dia cakap watper dok rumah nie.. bukan bleh nk wat apa2 pun.. hahaha.. iyolah tu..paham2 jelah..

Pukul 11.30 amik athirah kat sekolah agama terus anta anis balik sekali.. pastu pukul 12.45 anta dia skolah rendah lah.. aku gan hubby terus gi Tesco beli barang rumah.. sebenarnya dah lama aku tak di shopping gan hubby, entah apa angin dia ari tu.. buang tabiat gamaknya.. tetiba je ajak aku gi shopping.. pukul 330 balik badan dia mula rasa tak sihat balik... ekeleh.. jalan tak ingat pun dia demam..

Sebenarnya dah lama aku tak camnie.. mungkin nie pengajaran dari apa yang berlaku minggu lepas.. susah untuk aku jelaskan tapi biarlah aku pendamkan sendri.. terlalu peribadi untuk aku jelaskan disini..

Selamat Hari Jadi Athirah

21hb March.... Selamat hari jadi adik..

Tak sangka dah 9 tahun anak aku sorang tu.. rasanya baru saja aku lahirkan dia. Masa hari jadi dia aku tak sambut pun sebab aku tinggalkan dia gan abah dia 2 hari sebelum hari jadi dia tu.. aku keluar seminggu, tak balik rumah.. just sempat col je dia hari tu.. tapi aku sempat belikan dia jam tangan.. Masa aku balik hari ahad tu, masih ada kek yg abah dia belikan ari tu..

PRINCESS HOUR - EPISOD 12 - 24

Eps. 12

Shin tells Chae-kyeong that he is going to withdraw from being Crowned Prince, and she starts to feel frustrated because she does not know his true feelings. Chae-kyeong tries her best to get closer to him but the more she tries the more frustrated and angry she gets through finding traces of Hyo-rin. Eventually she gets into a fight with Shin and breaks into tears.
In the palace the plans for the restoration of Prince Yool’s power are in their final stages and Hwa-young and Yool get ready to move back into the palace. The entrance of a new power figure starts to create a division between people of the court over whom they are going to be loyal to, and the Empress and Hwa-young are busy keeping each other in check. The Empress Dowager, who has the final power in deciding whether or not the powers get restored to Hwa-young and Yool, doesn’t know whether giving them the power is the right thing to do or not. Yool and Shin bump into each other in the palace and start a nerve war.
Meanwhile, the Empress Dowager takes Chae-kyeong to Cheju Island to attend a formal royal event.

Eps. 13

The Empress Dowager, Shin and Chae-kyeong go on a little road trip around Cheju. Shin and Chae-kyeong try everything they can to cheer up the Empress Dowager.
The kids at school start looking at Yool through different eyes when they see his new style.
Meanwhile, the Empress is busy keeping her eyes on Hwa-young, who has moved into the palace. Hwa-young, scolds the Crown Princess for being lazy and for forgetting about her role and responsibilities as the Crown Princess.
After the pictures of Hyo-rin and Shin have been revealed to the public, bad rumors of Shin and Chae-kyeong start to go around. Worried, the adults of the family gather to discuss a plan to stop them before they get any bigger. They decide to have the couple get into the bridal bed.
Having no idea of the plan, Shin drinks some medicine that he was told is good for his body and Chae-kyeong gets all dressed up. Chae-kyeong sits in a room with her court ladies wondering what in the world is going on when she hears Shin coming into the room.

Eps.14


After hearing about the couple getting into bed together Yool runs over to see Chae-kyeong. She tells him that nothing happened between her and Shin, and he hugs her, relieved from the unthinkable thought of the two spending the night together. Shin sees this and gets very angry at Yool.
Chae-kyeong’s friends get angry at Hyo-rin for starting the rumors and start to criticize her. Chae-kyeong learns a secret about Hyo-rin and starts to feel uncomfortable.
Someone leaves a picture inside the Crown Princess’s room. Chae-kyeong is shocked when she sees it and disappears. Shin and Yool soon hear that she has disappeared and instantly go out looking for her.


Eps. 15

After finding Chae-kyeong in the Myung-sun Dang, Shin takes her to a place where they can be alone, where they proceed to spill their hearts out and tell their true feelings towards each other.

The violence between Yool and Shin becomes known throughout the palace. Hwa-young tells the Empress that she is not going to stand by and watch stuff like this happen ever again, raising the conflict between her and the Empress. The Emperor calls Shin (his son) and harshly scolds him, causing Shin to rebel against him.

Despite all the malicious gossip about the Crown Prince and Princess they attend a public conference. When the reporters ask for a loving pose Shin displays his showmanship.

Meanwhile, the Empress Dowager senses the tense atmosphere of the palace and suggests that the whole royal family should have a meal together.

Eps. 16

Shin and Chae-kyeong leave on a short honeymoon together.

Hyo-rin leaves on a trip to where she can find traces of Shin and her love. After getting the cold shoulder from Shin, Hyo-rin remembers what Hwa-young once told her and once again makes a firm determination not to give up.

Because of Hyo-rin, Shin and Chae-kyeong feel awkward again and Chae-kyeong starts to feel confused when Yool tells her to leave Shin so he can be with Hyo-rin.

The Empress finds out about Hwa-young’s plans and starts to take action… Just then the Crown Prince’s scandal gets known to the public and the palace goes into distress about the matter.

The Emperor calls Shin and begins seriously considering whether or not Shin is fit for being Crown Prince.

Eps. 17

Chae-kyeong gets angry at Shin for leaving the palace for a while without telling her where he was going. She asks him why he always keeps everything to himself and worries alone. Hearing this he suddenly hugs her and asks her to stay by his side even after he resigns from being Crown Prince.

Meanwhile, Hyo-rin, who has come to the palace at the Empress’s request, receives an offer from the Empress to support her.

Yool asks the Emperor permission for the Crown Prince and Princess to accompany him on his vacation for his birthday party.

Eps. 18

The criticisms of whether the Crown Prince is good enough or not keep rising; even the Emperor starts wondering if Yool is more fit for the spot.

Meanwhile, Hyo-rin discusses with Shin her education plans. Yool tells Chae-kyeong, who is feeling miserable at hearing that Hyo-rin and Shin had once promised to go abroad and study together, how he feels about her.

Shin’s jealousy begins to boil when her sees the two together…

Eps. 19

Chae-kyeong gets confused about all the trouble she got into with Shin at Yool’s birthday party. Watching her, Shin feels sorry and apologizes to her but she doesn’t take his apology and instead their anger toward each other deepens.

Chae-kyeong hears a rumor about her parents saying that they are profiting with the help of the palace. Hearing this she starts to feel the palace life more and more stuffy and choking. Shin senses her feelings and lets her get away from everything by having her go home for a night.

The Empress finds out about it and scolds her for doing whatever she wants to do even though she is the princess. Chae-kyeong gets her feeling hurt and runs out of the palace.

Eps. 20

Because of an unexpected incident Chae-kyeong ends up in the middle of a rumor. She meets her greatest crisis after becoming Crown Princess and wanting to figure out a way to stop the rumors on her own she refuses help from Shin and Yool.

Shin becomes angry at seeing Chae-kyeong worrying about how to fix her mistakes and orders the Myung Seong Dang to be repaired, but this just causes the Emperor, Hwa-young and Yool to get angrier and more frustrated.

After seeing Shin isolate himself from the others of the palace, the Empress calls him to talk as mother and son. She tells him about what she wishes for him.

After seeing Hyo-rin working towards of becoming her dream to become a ballerina, he thinks again of his dreams and what he really wants. He finds that his future includes Chae-kyeong and the Empress’s wish and goes to the interview with a firm attitude.

Eps. 21

Shin barely manages to cover up for Chae-kyeong’s surprise announcement.

The adults of the royal family get very angry at Chae-kyeong’s actions, which were not in line with the ordinary palace rules. Seeing this, Shin feels sad and angry at the same time.

Because of the incident, the scandal of the crown princess blows up again and Hwa-young gets nervous so she decides to use Chae-kyeong as the scapegoat to protect her son. Chae-kyeong kneels in front of the Emperor to ask for his forgiveness and cries, and Shin just ignores her.

Because of the incident Shin’s ability to be Emperor gets questioned and as this deepens Yool gains trust from the Emperor. In the middle of all this, however, Yool can’t stand looking at Chae-kyeong having such a hard time and reveals his feelings in front of all the royal adults.

Eps. 22

Yool tries his best to keep faithful to his heart even if it means breaking the rules. Shin insists that rules and regulations are the strength that holds the palace together. Even though their ways of following them and carrying them out are different, the person they want to protect are the same.

Chae-kyeong also feels bad watching the people she loves and cares for getting hurt, while the reasons and reality also grow farther and farther apart.

Meanwhile, the Emperor worries about the behavior of Yool and the other royal family members. Shin goes to Hwa-young and warns her that if she does any more harm to Chae-kyeong that she is going to pay the price, but even with his warning her ambitions continue to grow…

Eps. 23

Shin gets driven into a corner as an arson suspect. He insists that he is innocent but all the evidence leads back to him. Only Chae-kyeong believes him to be innocent and feels bad looking at his drooping shoulders. Shin, knowing that someone actually cares and loves him, doesn’t feel lonely anymore and calmly handles the situation.

Yool senses that it was all part of his mother’s plan and tells her to stop whatever she’s planning on doing but she does not know how to stop or even control her ambitions. As more incidents happen the existence of the palace starts to get questioned by the people and in order to stop all the rumors the Emperor suggests that the crown princess should practice more self-discipline. Chae-kyeong also thinks that as crown princess she should do it for the palace and the people, so she agrees but…


Chae-kyeong wants to show Shin the world that she once lived in so the two go out together into the everyday world, not as the royal couple but as a normal couple and enjoy a day out away from the palace.

Eps. 24

As the investigation of the arson incident furthers and the facts about it get revealed Shin gets more and more accused of being the cause of it. In the midst of all this Chae-kyeong and Shin’s feelings towards each other grow even stronger and they fight together to get through this storm. The two already resemble each other regardless of Chae-kyeong having told him that she has studied hard to be fit for him.

The Emperor once said that “Apart from the truth of the incident, the person worthy of the imperial throne is the one who receives the love and honor of the people.” Hwa-young smiles a smile of satisfaction and throws in her last card.

The Empress sees that Chae-kyeong has slowly started to show the qualities of a crown princess and for the first time they actually sit down and talk with each other. The Empress encourages her and gives her strength. With the warming concernsof her mother-in-law and a token of love from her husband, Chae-kyeong feels a responsibility to protect her new family and once again rises with a firm determination to protect them.

PRINCESS HOUR - EPISOD 1 - 11

Eps: 1

In the 14th year of Inhwa dynasty when the Hyun emperor’s illness gets worse than ever, the empress commands the Crown Prince, still in high school, to marry the bride who has been arranged for him beforehand. However Prince Shin, proposes to his secret lover, Hyo-rin Min, an ambitious ballet student who takes his proposal as a joke and turns him down saying that her success as a ballerina is of her primary concern.
Meanwhile, the family of Chae-kyeong, an ordinary high school student, is in deep financial trouble for standing security for the wrong person, and is overwhelmed with joy when they receive the marriage proposal from the Royal Family. The last words of their dying grandfather wasn’t a bluff after all!
Prince Shin agrees to marry the all-too-ordinary prearranged bride provided the Chang-Duk Palace be granted independence and the IkWiSa be reduced. However, Chae-kyeong, who had happened to witness Prince Shin’s proposal to Hyo-rin, is outraged by the arranged marriage, and claims it is nullified. Right at that moment, the creditors march in to Chae-kyeong’s house and put red cards on all of the furniture.



Eps. 2


Chae-kyeong, therefore, has no choice but to marry the prince due to her family’s financial crisis. But things aren’t easy, right from the first encounter with the Royal Family. Moreover, seeing that the prince has no affection for her whatsoever, showing careless cynical behavior throughout the wedding process, Chae-kyeong comes to regret accepting the proposal. But it’s too late; the Royal Marriage is the top news in the press, and Chae-kyeong’s house is crowded with reporters.
Yool, the son of Prince Hyo-yul who died in an unfortunate car crash 14 years ago, hurries back to Korea under the urgent order of his mother – princess Hye-jung, eager to the win back her husband’s throne. In the airport, he runs into Hyo-rin, who has just returned from her contest but they don’t recognize each other.
Yool has been studying fine art in England, and transfers to a high school for arts, where Shin and Chae-kyeong are also students. Unlike Shin, who tries to be friends with Yool, his mother, the Empress, feels a shade of anxiety upon Yool’s reappearance…



Eps. 3


At last, Chae-kyeong has made up her mind to join the Royal Family.
Lessons for becoming a proper Crown Princess start as she enters the palace. She has to endure hard training, which includes learning proper ways to talk, memorizing the whole wedding process, etc., with the Prince showing no interest nor offering any help to her. Life in the palace is not an easy task from day one.
A huge ceremony is held to welcome the new Crown Princess, and with the entire country as witness, Shin and Chae- kyeong are wed in the traditional 21st century Royal procedure. Meanwhile, Hyo-rin, who had previously rejected Shin’s proposal, stands at a ballet stage in Thailand…



Eps. 4

On the first day after the wedding, Shin and the rest of the adults in the Royal Family go out to fight a little war to ensure they receive what was promised to them for granting the marriage. While Shin is being very serious, Chae-kyeong, on the other hand is busy enjoying the privileges of being the Crown Princess and is slowly adapting to life as a Royal.
Chae-kyeong and Shin go to school but Chae-kyeong gets treated like an outcast; the only person that actually talks to her is Yool. Shin runs into Hyo-rin, who has came back from her contest…



Eps. 5


Chae-kyeong, after making her morning calls to the elders of the royal family, is surprised to see Yool inside the palace. Yool, a transfer student in her class, turns out to be prince Ui-seong. At first Chae-kyeong has a hard time adjusting to life in the palace with its strict education and rules, but thanks to the warmth of the emperor and other elders at the palace she starts to find the royal culture attractive.
Meanwhile, Hwa-yeong prepares to open a yoga center while plotting with Choi against the other royal family members, while Yool gets closer to Chae-kyeong and her friends.
Prince Shin’s birthday is coming soon, and Chae-kyeong starts to get excited about the birthday party, but the only people awaiting her are Shin’s friends, who despise her, and Hyo-rin…



Eps. 6

Thanks to Yool’s help, Chae-kyeong looks good in the eyes of the Queen Mother. In addition, after attending a number of events with Shin, she becomes well known to the public and loved by them for her plain looks and free spirit. Yool tells her she should carry herself with dignity but she ignores his advice.
At the opening of the yoga center Hwa-yeong meets Hyo-rin and finds out that she is the Crown Prince’s ex-girlfriend, and when the Empress later finds out the Hwa-yeong has secretly come to Korea and opened a yoga center, she is greatly displeased.
Meanwhile, at the palace a party is held to announce the officially married Crowned Prince and his wife to the ambassadors of the constitutional monarchy.



Eps. 7


Kam-ae-tta-la starts to feel uneasy as Chae-kyeong adjusts to the palace life. As Hyo-rin thinks back on the good days with Shin she remembers what Hwa-young told her and is determined to get Shin back.
Meanwhile, Chae-kyeong misses her family because she hasn’t seen them since she moved into the palace. But soon she and the prince are finally allowed to go visit her family. Chae-kyeong is very happy to be back home but Shin has a hard time adjusting, due to the fact that he has lived his whole life in the palace. Chae-kyeong’s family also feels uncomfortable living in the same house with the him. Chae-kyeong and Shin, who quarrel frequently, end up spending a night together in Chae-kyeong’s small room.




Eps. 8

Chae-kyeong and Shin return to the palace and after spending time with Chae-kyeong’s happy and close-knit family. Shin feels sad to see his family who has always been under the control of his strict father, the King. Seeing this, Chae-kyeong comforts him and Shin prepares a car just for her.
Persuaded by Hyo-rin, Chae-kyeong and Yool join an equestrian club. Not knowing why Hyo-rin invited Chae-kyeong into the club, Shin’s friends are dissatisfied with the whole idea.
Meanwhile, Shin goes to Thailand in place of the Emperor, who couldn’t go because of health reasons.



Eps. 9


While Shin is away in Thailand Chae-kyeong gets lonely and gets in trouble for breaking the car. After overhearing some girls at school talk bad about her she gets hurt and asks Yool to just take her away from the palace some place far away from it all.
In, Kyeong, Hwan, and Hyo-rin all go to Thailand. Hyo-rin meets up with Shin and asks him to take her to the airport and the two end up spending a day together.
Meanwhile, back at the palace Chae-kyeong has disappeared…



Eps. 10


After taking Hyo-rin to the airport Shin makes it to the press conference just in time and gives an outstanding speech.
Meanwhile, back at the palace Chae-kyeong gets confined to the palace for leaving the palace walls without permission. Yool after seeing Chae-kyeong get in trouble asks Hwa-young to make him the crowned prince. With the help of Yool, Chae-kyeong successfully finishes the welcoming ceremony for Prince William and Hwa-young starts finding back her and her son’s rights as a royal family by asking the emperor to replace back to them Emperor Hyo-yeol’s powers.
Chae-kyeong, who has been waiting for Shin to get back from Thailand, finally sees him...



Eps. 11
Chae-kyeong insists on riding her horse alone even though the court ladies try everything in their power to dissuade her. While riding her horse she accidentally runs into a stranger in the palace who turns out to be princess Hye-myeong, Shin’s older sister. Shin is happy to see his sister, whom he hasn’t seen for a long time and uncharacteristically shows his softer side to her, telling her his deepest thoughts.
The paparazzi photos of Hyo-rin and Shin get reported in the Thai newspapers. The Empress sees the newspaper and gets angry at Shin. Chae-kyeong also finds out about it and gets angry at herself for missing Shin while he was away in Thailand, not knowing that he was with Hyo-rin. Chae-kyeong and Hyo-rin run into each other at school and Chae-kyeong asks her about what really happened in Thailand between the two, but instead of showing a sorry attitude Hyo-rin shows a very dignified attitude causing Chae-kyeong to faint in front of her friends.

Kasih Yang Suci

Sinopsis : KASIH YANG SUCI

KEPADA para peminat novel Alaf 21, jangan lepaskan peluang untuk memiliki novel terbaru bertajuk 'Kasih Yang Suci' hasil nukilan penulis baru iaitu Meen Zulaikha yang kini sudah berada di pasaran.

Novel yang membelai perasaan ini mampu membuatkan anda sayang untuk meninggalkan walau satu patah perkataan pun. Sepuluh tahun lalu, kesucian Nora Elena dinodai. Andai masa boleh diulang kembali, pasti jiwanya tidak punah. Tapi dia sedar, takdir hidup tidak memihak kepasa sesiapa. Saiful Idham, tunangnya pergi kerana tragedi ini. Tiba-tiba muncul Seth menawarkan diri untuk menjadi suaminya. Nora Elena keliru...

Tapi mengapa Elena menjadi wanita asing dalam perkahwinan mereka? Rahsia yang selama ini disimpan kemas, akhirnya terbongkar. Sebenarnya, Sethlah lelaki durjana itu. Menodainya atas alasan kerana kasihnya yang suci! Benarkah?

Apakah kisah seterusnya? Apa yang harus dilakukan oleh Elena terhadap suaminya? Mampukah perkahwinan mereka bertahan?
Segala-galanya dalam Kasih Yang Suci. Dapatkan segera sebelum kehabisan.

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Pagi tadi aku pergi hospital lagi buat rawatan susulan selepas operation hari tu.. doktor kata ujian cyst yang derang buat takde menunjukkan cancer.. sekali lagi doktar tanya sama ada aku nak buat ivf atau pun tak.. tapi kata dia kos agak tinggi jugak. Aku rasa sure laki aku takmau punya, dia pun buat tak kisah je sekarang nie.. so doktor kata kalu aku nak derang bleh refer ke HKL tapi kena tunggu lama la.. so aku rasa malas la.. cukup la sorang dah ler.. kalu ada rezeki ada la nanti kot.

Pukul 9.30 aku dah balik dari sepital singgah kat kedai buku kat bukit dukung tu.. apa lagi sure nak tambah koleksi la.. tapi takde buku baru kat kedai tu.. cuma ada beberapa buah je novel tu pun tak menarik sgt tapi aku beli gak 2 buah novel Norhayati Berahim - Tiada Batasan Sayang gan Kasih Yang Suci...

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